repeat, replay

i promised
myself
this wouldn't happen again

these delusions
and dreams
have already broken my heart
twice

but he still
has this hold on my heart
and i don't think
he knows it.

or perhaps he does
and continues
to play me
for the fool that i am.

and he'd be right
about me
and what i do to myself

i give
everything
completely

i'm used
abused
and left
because he doesn't want
things to change

i'm the best friend
that will always be there
pussy in a glass case

WHY
do i do this to myself??